Wow, does that title sound arrogant. Stay with me here and let me explain. I've got what you want and you've got what I want. There that sounds nicer. I have been pondering these thoughts lately as I have been trying to climb out of my funk. God has been showing me things that I could have, things that I don't want. For example, there was an article in the paper about a teenage girl who was wheelchair bound and who needed caregivers because she had to have someone with her 24/7 to help take care of her medical needs. The article was about how she is going to the prom and the obstacles she needs to overcome to do something as "normal" as going to the prom. This article hit me like a ton of bricks. I have been frustrated with my own circumstances and they are light compared to what this young lady and her family have to go through.
I have felt God nudging me to start looking at what I have instead of what I don't have. I know that my spirit has been down and that makes me realize that I have been a downer. It's like a kid who wants to go spray a bunch of water on the dirt outside so she can play in the mud (I was that kid) and after awhile she tires of being in the mud and needs to come in the house and get cleaned up. My loving Father has allowed me to be in the mud, and now it is time to come to him and get cleaned up. As I wrote before, I have been reading in the Bible in the Old Testament, and I am in Exodus. I have been a bit frustrated with needing to yet again read these stories, but God has drawn me back here. In the story of Moses and the Israelites in Egypt I noticed something that I don't think I ever saw before. Things had to get worse for God's people before they got better. Moses went to Pharaoh, as God told him to, to tell Pharaoh to let God's people leave their work for a few days to go away and worship God. Pharaoh says no and then makes the Isreaelites work of making brick much harder because now the straw would not be provided, and they had to go get it for themselves. They still had the same quota of bricks to make, and a ton more work added to their job. Of course the Israelites got upset with Moses! Moses came along to give them a break to go and worship God and it backfired on them, at least that was thier point of view. But God had a plan! He didn't want to only give His people a break from their work to go and worship him, He wanted to free them from slavery. The circumstances from the Isrealites ground view was painful and probably confusing. The circumstances from God's point of view look totally different. I needed to see that! I needed to have God Almighty show me through this story that he has a plan, and sometimes things get worse before they get better. Sometimes the plan takes time, and the circumstances are not pleasant. But here is the humbling part, His workings and His plan are for His glory, not my comfort. In the story of Moses he wanted to show His glory to the Egyptians. He wanted to impact a nation of people apart from His own people. What he did, the plagues and the parting of the Red Sea, would be not only recorded in the Scriptures for God's people, but would be talked about and shared through generations of Egyptian people, and God would be glorified. His power and authority would be known. And I want the story of my life to show God's glory, therefore I will have to accept any plagues, and circumstances that I can't understand as being good and for a God glorifying purpose. (God will have to help me do that!) I have what you want. You have what I want. I don't get it all, praise God for that. There are people that I know and I know their story, at least the parts they tell me. These people have "plagues", not of Biblical proportion, but they are difficult things in their life. One friend has recently been divorced, she didn't want this, she wanted her marriage to work; I am married. One friend's husband lost his job, they didn't want this; my husband has a job. One friend has chronic pain, I have a little pain, but it doesn't stop me. Another person I know wants to move out of her mother's house and have a place of her own, she doesn't want to live with her Mom, but circumstances has brought her there; I have a home of my own. Some people rent, we have bought a house. Ladies battling cancer loose their hair, I have mine. Many women that I have known have lost a child, mine are all living. I have so much, and God wants me to look at the things I have not the things that other people have. He is glorified in my praise, not grumbling.
You may have family near, I would like that. You may have years living in your community, have lived in one house for decades, go to a church that you have years of attending, I want that. You may have the time and money to take vacations with your family, I want that. All of your kids learn without a learning disability, are in a sport, everyday go outside and play, go in buildings with florescent lights and it doesn't affect them, I want that too. But here is the place that God has brought me to; I have what I have and some want that, you have what you have and I want that too, I can't have it all. God has a plan and purpose for each of us and it is different. He is love, He is compassionate, He is kind, He cares, even when it looks like he doesn't. My conclusion: Start looking at what you have and thank God for it. You have and I have what someone else is longing for, and praying for. I need to not forget to be grateful and look at all the blessings that God has so graciously bestowed on me, and thank Him for what I have and for the many many things (plagues) that I don't have. I have what you want, and you have what I want, but thank God for all the things that I don't have, and Praise God for all the things that I do.