Do you ever feel it? You know that Blah feeling. It comes when it wishes, uninvited, unannounced. You are not supposed to talk about it because you are supposed to be "to blessed to be stressed" and "happy and you know it". Well it comes anyway.
The last two weeks I have taken my youngest son to the doctor 4 times. Four times in 7 days I had to explain to someone the not so good stuff going on with my son. First, there was the urgent care doctor, who sent us on to an ear, nose, and throat doctor (got us in that day), then this week back to the ear, nose, and throat doctor, and finally to the pediatrician, all to find out what I suspected before the first office visit, my 15 year old son has an ear infection. I was happy to finally have a diagnosis that would be treated, but just raw with the truth that one doctor says that my son has one thing and to do one treatment, and then another says another thing and no the other doctor is wrong, and now we need to do this treatment. It makes me wonder who to believe next time. Well, the truth is that I should always believe myself. I knew, but it took time for the prof to show up.
There is some just something about all of this medical stuff that just wears on me. This whole year this kid has been sick with only a little bit of breaks in between. His migraines have gone chronic. I don't like opening up myself and how we live as a family to people I have never met or hardly know. I feel like I'm being judged against whatever the current study has found to be the right way to do things. We live the best we can with what we have and no one has done a study on us to prove if we are doing it right or wrong.
I know that all of this leaves me feeling blah. It's not something that you proudly post about on social media, nor is this the kind of stuff you call a friend to catch up on (well I do have one friend who has been through similar stuff and I do let her know because she truly understands where I'm coming from). Hmmm......that is exactly that helps run the blah feeling away, understanding. Not many people truly are able to understand where another is coming from unless they have experienced similar life experiences. I am so grateful when one of those people cross my path. Having understanding and empathy is food to the soul, it connects us to one another in a way that says, "I will stand with you right now in your trouble, and I'm here with you and I hear you."
Let me just say that I encourage you that if you ever have the opportunity to give understanding and words of encouragement to another, one who your really understand where they are standing in life, do it. You have the power to turn someone's blah into to an ahhhh.