Jan. 1, 2019
I went to my new friend Chris' house to set up my quilt on her Sweet 16 long arm quilting machine. It proved to be more difficult a task than either of us imagined. The batting got messed up, she couldn't remember just how to wind the layers on the machine. We pinned the quilt on and wound it up, then unwound and un pinned, and laughed as we went. She is English and 86 years post birth. We gave up on the quilt and sat and had tea. My first English tea! She had four children. One son died at 23 and she said that she has never been the same. She had cancer, surgery, then chemo. She asked about the side effects of chemo and then had the chemo only to find out afterward of the side effect she was not warned about had happened to her and would change her body for the rest of her life. We are very different but I see some of myself in her. I so enjoy her friendship and that she is open with me, teases me and laughs with me.
Tonight I had a phone date with my dear dear friend Stephanie. She is my Aussie friend who is now a CA girl. She listened to all my Mom topics and then opened up about her career. She is being pursued by her company to step into leadership within the company. She shared about a conference she went to with amazing women speakers who were very accomplished and wifes and mothers. Knowing that there are women out there like that is very intemidating for me because I would very much like to be more acomplished than I am. My accomplished friend dose not make me fill this way as she sees that we are in the same boat; she does not want to pursue leadership in her career and I do not want to be so tied to home. But here we both are being challeged by what we believe God has given us to tackle and live out in our lives.
My lessons: In life you do not get what you expect. The unexpected will challenge you and will change you and take you places you would not have thought of going on your own. The second lesson is that I need these types of friendships to feed my soul.
After my phone conversation with Stephanie I had an honest prayer. I will be honest with you and say that I have been frustrated with God and where He has me right now. Things continue to pan out in the most unexpected ways. I want to hear from God but do not want to assume he says something that He has not. The only safe and sure way I can hear from Him is though the Bible. I turned to a familar verse that I have built my adult life on. The verse is Titus 2:3-5 "Older women likewise are to be reverent in their behavior, not malicious gossips nor enslaved to much wine, teaching what is good, so that they may encourage the young women to love their husbands, to love their childrn, to be sensible, pure, workers at home, kind, being subject to their own husbands, so that the word of God will not be dishonered." This is were I have hung my hat, what I have tried to build my life upon because I believed this was God's call on my life. In my friend's leadership training she was asked to see where her obstacles lie in moving forward. It made me think of my own obstacles. This is really not an obstacle but what keeps me where I'm at, I have not yet been called beyond my post. My heart and passion is my little army of men and the place that I call home but really is just a dude ranch. Today my biggested take away lesson is "Things do not always go as planned embrace: plan " b".
My plan is for my own greatness, God's plan is to use me to reflect his greatness, I am to be humble.
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