From the Spring of 2014 to the Spring of last year (2018) my husband have been looking for a local church to call home. We visited many churches. We stayed for a time at some only to discover that it wasn't the right fit for our family. We have met some wonderful Christian people along the way. We have been to churches that are friendly and others that wouldn't know if you were new and visiting because they were so huge. I wanted a smaller church that I could get plugged into and my husband wanted one that he could feel free to sing in worship. This surprised me because I didn't know that worship singing was important to him.
I had been getting more and more isolated during that time due to my youngest son's illness and so longed for fellowship with other believers in Jesus. I stepped out at one church and went to a ladies bible study. I just couldn't do it. I just could be somewhere that would expect me to open up and be raw and share my life. I had been so beaten down by trying to find help for my son and didn't want to open myself up to more advice by well-meaning women. I went once and never returned.
My husband and I were so tired and weary from this search for a church that we nearly gave up. I just didn't want to even go to church. I didn't get the point. The church that we were attending was so large and we would go on Sunday and sit and watch what they did up front and then when the service was over we would leave and talk to know one. It was too painful for me to do that. I desperately needed fellowship with other true believing and Jesus loving Christians. I'm sure that there were those people at that church but we just didn't have much time to get involved due to my needing to be home to care for our son.
My husband found Grace Baptist church and asked if I wanted to give it a try. We went on Mother's Day last year. Hmmm.....it was like a gift to this hurting mother's heart to be led there.
Now fast forward to today. On my way to bible study tonight I got a call from the pastor to just check in on us. I had shared on the pew card that I would like prayer for Jake and I think this was a follow-up. It was so refreshing to get to have a little chat with him. The bible study group that we attend has been very welcoming and just feels comfortable. It is so refreshing to be with like-minded people who share and support each other.
I praise God for giving me this refreshing ice tea in the midst of a long summer heat wave.
Lesson: Don't give up, press on, seek God for what you need. Wait expectantly for what he will do. He is a loving God (even when you are sweating and parched) He is your refreshment.